All the things I couldn’t figure out how to say. Finally put together in one sentence.
Happy Valentines Day!
My work called me to respond to a big emergency this afternoon. In another city. I will be staying there for 3 days. I’m getting ready, packing little handy snacks and making sure I have my clothes/gear ready. Since I’ll be working 12-14 hour shifts. I believe that I leave before sun-up tomorrow morning, instead of tonight. Which is good. I get to rest some. But before then, I wanted to wish you all a Happy Valentines Day. Rememer every day is appreciation day for all the people you adore in life, not just today. Take care and please be safe out there.
Go to a place where the locals know your face.
Being that you’re a regular….
(Put on glasses… walk in)
Confuse the hell out of everyone.
I think that all goals should be things that enhance the value of yourself, to yourself. Without the intent of impressing other people or trying to one-up other people. Goals are not something to be competitive about. The only person you should ever be competitive with, is yourself. I think that’s the most important part that holds it all together. The second thing that you have to understand is, so many people will try to tell you what success is. But just because they say so, doesn’t mean that it’s right. So don’t let that discourage you, and don’t use that as a way to beat yourself up. Give yourself credit while also being humble. Ultimately, it all boils down to, What do YOU want to whole heartedly do for yourself? Goals are building blocks to build a better you.
How do I stay focused on my goals? Hmm…. I think the key to staying focused is my mood and my attitude going into working on the goals. I don’t believe in approaching something that I want with a negative attitude. And if I feel that I am in a negative mood, I burn it off. I don’t just let myself sit there and marinate in the negative mood. I do something about it. For example; there are days where things just happen that put me in a negative mood. And I don’t like feeling that way because it not only brings me down mentally, but it’s also physically exhausting later. So, I’ll go running. And when I go running, I listen to instrumentals or beats. I listen to a lot of instrumentals because they don’t alter my mood. They are neutral, especially when I’m already feeling negative. I think that a lot of songs with lyrics can contribute to your mood. I’m not saying that I don’t listen to songs with lyrics at all. I’m just saying that I don’t when I’m in a negative mood. The instrumentals help balance me out while I’m working out. And running or working out helps me burn off the negative tension in my body. And I feel so much more relaxed after. Much better mood. I always keep myself busy or moving so that there is no time for negative thoughts to seep in.
Another important thing that helps me to stay focused is, I have filtered out just about all of the people who were not good for me and my life. And I don’t mean in personal value type of good for me. I mean that they were not good for my soul. I think that if you keep certain people in your life (negative people who just carry unnecessary drama) it wears you down and can ultimately be sickening for your soul and sanity. And when I say soul, I mean your maximum self. That part of you, which allows you to deeply feel your inner emotions. Um… I also have to see certain close friends once a week or every couple of weeks. Because there’s a certain type of nurturing that I need to keep myself going. And seeing my closest friends or my big sister are a way of feeding my soul healthy food. If you know what I mean. Also, thank you very much. That’s flattering that you think of me that way. It’s very humbling that you and others find me inspiring. I hope this helps.
I think this is the first year where I don’t have a list of resolutions. I accomplished all of my goals in 2011. I have never been so surprised with myself. It’s quite something to do all the things that you never imagined yourself being able to do. To some extent, I still can’t process it through my brain. So… I can’t think of anything else that I want for myself. Or any goals I want for myself this year.
I think I can only think of one thing that I’m going to change. And it’s not a goal at all. But it is something I’m going to change about myself & my relationships with others. From now on, everyone else needs to take the initiative with me. It’s quite exhausting being the one who always tries to make sure everyone else is ok. And being the one who tries to always keep in touch, while not being appreciated. One can only try so much to save or maintain a relationship. As a relationship is a 2 way street. I will continue on with all the things that I started in January of 2011. But I will do so while being less concerned about everyone else. I’m a busy person. If you want to be in my life, you take the initiative. If you care about me that much, check up on me. If you have something to tell me, or something to ask me, do it. It’s not difficult. I’m not going to lose sleep or go out of my way for someone who wants to use me, or who doesn’t give a shit at all. No sympathy.
We are all in our mid 20’s. We are grown ass adults. No more time should be wasted. And yes, this is fair.
With love and sincerity,